Dissatisfied

Displaced in the middle.

There is an unrest,

An uneasiness,

A pull towards pressing in more closely,

Not living in my heart so remotely.

Every synapse in my brain

Must be rewired into the

Thoughts of my Father.

I’m dissatisfied.

There is a restlessness growing,

And a not-okay-with-where-I’m-at

Attitude that is reaching out like

A hand towards the light.

The reality is that I am free.

The “veil has been torn,”

And my life has been forever changed,

But I find myself getting tangled

In lesser-than things,

And distractions,

And temptations,

And I’m not interested in living my life like that.

I don’t want to live in compromise.

My desire is to be all-in,

Heart, body, mind, and soul.

I don’t want to tell myself one thing

And live out another,

Or tell You one thing

And do something different,

I don’t want things that really mean nothing,

To be the things I am drawn to most.

May the dissatisfaction of how things are,

The frustration of feeling distracted

By meaningless things,

Be a catalyst to draw me closer

To the One I love,

And deeper into the heart and mission

Of who He is.